kind of emo the whole of ytd...
haha...
well..
cant help it...
now, i think i still a bit...
as in..
sad..
and disappointed...
i asked my fren if she could tell tt im disappointed from my facial expression and my mood or sth...
she told me i seem normal...
well..
i must say i do SEEM normal most of the time...
even when im terribly sad or disappointed..
tts why not many ppl will noe me well i suppose..
but tts my character!!
i wont look sad.. maybe cos i dun wan ppl to noe...
to get worried and stuffs...
i dun lyk crying over things...
but sometimes...
it's jus too much...
so much tt i cant control the tears which are overflowing...
seldom do i cry...
but i always did for oni one thing...
and i think it's silly...
没错，
不经历风雨， 怎么能见彩虹。。。
经历了风雨一定能见到成果！！
但是。。。
有时风雨太大， 令我受不了。。。
无法坚持下去。。。
Life turned ironic at 9:43 PM
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Wednesday, January 21, 2009
i feel tt as every sceond past by...
it drains out the last bits of energy out of me...
im vry tired...
seriously...
TIRED OUT...
im still wondering jus how long can i hold on...
im throughoutly disappointed...
too disappointed for words...
i cant dsecribe anything...
all i noe is i nid rest...
jus a rest stop for me...
jus a day's rest would help A LOT...
but it dun seem lyk i can ever stop....
i want to...
but im not allowed to..
it's not to be controlled by me..
i have no say...
mayb life is lyk this...
NEVER ending..
mentally...
physically...
any aspects...
im jus feeling tt even every last bits of my energy is being drained away...
i noe...
sooner or ltr...
i'll be energy-less...
i have never been so disappointed in pri sch before..
never disappointed at all...
but it's different in sec sch...
i cried once last year..
today...
im so proud to say tt i held back my tears...
though i noe it's something to be embarrassed about my results...
it's no longer the same...
and it can no longer
and it will never be the same anymore...
我怀念的是那无所不谈的日子。。。
但看来那是再也不可能的了。。。
但心里总是还抱着一丝丝的希望。。。
希望。。。。。。。。。
Life turned ironic at 8:53 PM
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Sunday, January 18, 2009
haiz...
this year isnt as lucky as last year...
last year, i must say im damn lucky...
but i cant say so too for this year...
ya...
got some problems here...
which made me kind of sad...
haiz...
seriously,
work has been coming in and in...
haiz...
vusy busy busy...
and have 3 tutions...
all so hard...
all got homework...
maybe it's cos im stupid.. tts why it's so...
i dun think there's anything i can do...
life's such a irony...
haiz..
i can oni force tears back into my stomach...
泪水只能往肚里吞。。。
这是多痛苦的事啊！！！
但又有谁和我分担呢？？？
Life turned ironic at 6:51 PM
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Saturday, January 10, 2009
GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WA...
this year's not going be easy...
first week of sch...
whole pile oh HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!
lyk how much more can we have for the rest of the year????
wa....
really having troubles coping...
seriously...
for one of those few times im seriously SERIOUS here...
though nobody cares if im serious...
cos nobody ever reads my blog...
dun care...
keep it as a journal...
occasional journal...
whatever..
i think this year i may not be able to hold on there...
till the end of the year...
oni time it is relaxable...
mayb i may jus....
jus..
burst my limit half way...
u never noe.............
...........
especially wif so many things happening....
................
Life turned ironic at 10:04 PM
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Wednesday, January 07, 2009
gosh...
sch reopened le...
haha...
noe a bit slow la...
lol...
erm...
monday jiu started studying le...
no orientation de...
:(
haha!
started lessons wothout knowing many ppl...
sad sad huh?
haha...
now better le...
got more frens...
haha
er..
this few days vry tired lehs..
dunno why...
found tt i've been quite determine...
lucky me..
lucky me changed...
haha...
er...
wish it will not be jus for a short peride of time!!!
haha!
三分钟热度...
Life turned ironic at 4:57 PM
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Thursday, January 01, 2009
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
ok...
happy new year...
though im not vry excited abt this coming year...
hmm...
mayb i shld look at things positively...
ok...
i have new year resolutions...
which is wired...
cos i nv used to have any goals in life..
this year is my streaming year..
hope to get gd combination of subjects...
if possible..
to transfer..
tts oni mayb..
havent decided yet..
also, provided i'll be accepted...
which is the least possible...
or rather...
impossible...
i think tis year would be a hard year for everyone..
wif the economic downturn n stuff...
i have had my things planned out...
hope i wont get lazy and go against my plans..
Life turned ironic at 6:49 PM
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